well yeah for now....
because
i love love love park jaebum...
i want him to come back....
and i want to snag all the icons i've missed
and i want to test this stupid last.fm thing...

of lovers and fools

i've never written anything so angsty...lemme know how bad the fail is...
supposed to be for shineeworld week 23: can't let go...but i feel the fail is too great...

silently cursing and crying inside
alone in the dark
two voices quietly
whispering confessions behind closed doors
each word ringing loud in his broken heart
he knew it would never happen
he knew key would never truly love him,
not while onew was around
but he pretended not to see
the burning looks that weren't for him
pretended not to hear
"i love you, hyung" whispered in the dead of night
even when he was dying inside
sleepless nights
writing songs of love and heartbreak
songs about the boy he loved
who didn't hear
how every word was for him
his sweet cruel voice
repeating a name that wasn't his
his crumbling facade falls away
the tears flow freely now
hours later
he sits silently
the table in front of him littered
with crumpled sheets of words and notes
eyes dry
waiting

NO ONE READS THIS.  I SHOULD START WRITING FICS.  WILL GO WRITE NOW.  XD IM AN IDIOT.

like a vine reaching out for the sun
my heart is drawn to you
like a rose with thorns
it hurts more with each failure
at melting the ice prince
you are
a lone rose of bloody red
with poison thorns

that sharp word
careless look
meaningless motion
it only hurts when our eyes meet
and i fall into that ocean
again and again

damstraighthoes.